Hello my name is Chuck Mistretta I am bipolar

 

 

If your looking for solutions, there are none.  This will save you some reading time.  If you want to know why, keep reading.

 

Bipolar (manic depression) is a neurological manifestation, not a disease that can not be cured with thought or medication.  It occurs from birth or from trauma and interrupts your life for as long as you live.  This is a personal definition only, not a guide. 

 

When delusion is limited with the aid of medication perceptions once enjoyed no longer exist. Therefore a life without delusion no longer accepts the very experiences that at one time defined that life. Consequently the relationships that were born of delusion must be rebuilt. It’s fair to assume, that once reconstructed, they will not mirror any previous state of mind. The loss of the unreal creates a need to reconstruct what is real and it is accomplished more so by necessity than choice.

Being able to experience both delusion and hallucination then recounting the experience from a normal vantage point is indeed interesting, but not a cure. It’s merely an intellectual exercise that documents what the beholder knows, or thinks about while knowing. All of which is lacking in validity until someone agrees upon your conclusions, i.e. friends, family, work associates, anyone who is introduced to you.  

The act of documentation without action remains no more than an interesting exercise in introspection. Action being the ongoing effort to maintain a mental, physical and social balance of the acceptable kind. 

 

How you accomplish this is your daily worthwhile challenge.   It is almost as important to maintain a helpful system of belief as well as holding onto an equally worthy disbelief - remember free will?

 

**Forgive me if this seems like an over simplification.  The bulk of this self-help idea was written twenty five years ago.  Again this is a personal opinion.  I am not a doctor.  I speak from personal experience only.